It is a Monday morning  Yes I hate Mondays. Feeling super bored, have nothing much to do so, I am thinking of all the possible things I can do to keep my brain occupied.
Lets see... I love to annoy some people.. sometimes :) I am sure everybody feels the same sometimes. So, basically it is a good time pass . Hehehe. And as I am typing this blog, I am thinking of the possible topics to discuss in this blog, as most of my blogs attract extreme reactions from people.

OK......... seems like I found a topic. And it is my favorite.. It about my take on God and god fearing.

Millions of people across the world believe in "GOD" .. But GOD means different to different  people. Some people believe his physical  existence and some believe GOD is nothing but a superpower, which has no definition. For me specifically, GOD is a superpower. A force which strongly guides me  to be who I am.
I give a lot of importance to my beliefs. I personally believe god lies in our heart and our actions are shaped by how much of a god fearing person you are .

The world will cease to be a horrible experience if every human being is guided by his consciousness. I sometimes wonder how all these people who keep chanting god's name day in and day out, end up hurting another human being. Don't they fear "GOD" ? I fail to understand...

I wish everyone wakes up to the fear of "GOD" or his own consciousness and stops hurting people. The world will be a beautiful place.

THIS SHALL PASS! (My first blog of this year !)

Why do I crave to find the answers, Why do I feel I know what is going on in your mind.. Why can I not see pain and why does my heart cry. It is filled with so much pain that It wants to let out all the emotions but cannot find a channel .. Y are my feelings so extreme.. Is it good or bad.. is it practical in the world where people operate from selfishness.. Why do I feel I have a connection with most people.. I need my answers as I if I was made to have them..

Why do some people hate me and why do some love me so much.. I do not know what will happen next and I do not know if I am doing right. I have no answers as my mind is blank looking for some hope in the faintest of capacity and when I find that I see that I am overjoyed . I do not even know if I should let it be ..Even when I laugh I feel so empty. It feels so dark inside of me I want to run and find that light at the end of the tunnel.. Hoping against hope for a miracle to engulf me into its enormous power and make me a person I always wanted to be. So much going on inside me that I feel trapped and I want to break free and fly away .

Every hope that comes by is like a mirage.. Its there but when You get closer Its gone.. As if it meant nothing… Jesus.. I pray to you and think You are playing a game with me and it is a path that you have put me on to travel and finally help get there.. I hope you are testing me and I am sure you are there to lead me and hold me when I go wrong.. I But I still crave for my answers..

Everyone goes through this phase I am sure. Some people accept and some don’t .. But THIS SHALL PASS!

What a TALL GIRL wants

Dedicated to short guys

Tall girls usually feel proud of their height, because they can actually STAND TALL.
So, what would a tall girl expect from her guy! The least she would expect is that the guy is taller than her! That’s because tall girls are rare and they would like to show off their tallness and make the short guys & girls feel jealous! Short girls are most times jealous of tall girls and it’s like a threat to them, like an invasion! Short girls will hate the tall girls just simply because of their tallness.. hahhaha.. Weird but true in case of girls, because being tall itself is like the best advantage a girl can have. No kidding! Tall girls want to show how tall they feel and so, they even wear heels to embarrass the guys ! hahha.. They think they are on top of the World or at least the Empire State building!

Characteristics of a tall girl are: She will not even want to stand next to a shorter guy, coz it will make her feel like she is standing with a dwarf and it will spoil her image as it’s embarrassing! . And she will think one hundred times if a short guy asks her out for a date, as short is very much equivalent to NO GOOD .. Ask me about it , as I am tall. Tall girls are happy and proud of their height until they find some other girl who is taller than them! Then there is role reversal and they feel the exact same thing what the shorter girl would feel..

So basically, the next time you want to impress a tall girl, keep praising her about height and how well she carries off her tallness and wish you were taller and Blah Blah Blah.. That’s the first step to impress a TALL GIRL . The next step is not to wear big sole boots, unfortunately! The next step is definitely nothing to do with tallness.. Just the regular way to impress a girl will do . Well I could even write a blog on how to impress a girl ..hahhaha

So this is my short blog dedicated to short guys …Stop trying to impress tall girls and try someone of your kinds ..Ok wanted to write some nonsense just for the heck!… Hope you have fun reading it, the way I had fun writing it .

LONELINESS

Life is strange… I believe!! Stranger than fiction sometimes..

I am writing a blog after a long time.. Many of my friends did encourage me to write a blog many a times but somehow something / nothing inspired me enough to write a blog.. Maybe because from the outside I am very jovial but inside I am a very emotional person and I did not want people to get to that side of me. Yes, I do not intend to sound like a depressed soul.. no, thats not my intention at all..

Today, something about a conversation I had with a friend changed that for me.. I always complained I do not have a good topic to write a blog on.. Because, for me what is important is not just to write / its important for me to have a natural flow of thoughts. Today I felt I must write about a state of mind that everyone at some point goes through. Maybe it could help someone / maybe me, in someway!!!

Well, to begin with I would say, I have been looking for love all my life... My topic comes from this context.

All my life I have felt I am alone and there is no one who can understand what I am feeling / going through. When I was younger, I had a different definition of who a friend is . I remember infact in my slam book back in school I have defined a friend as “ One who is only yours “ Well that was back then , when I felt I have no true friends to care and share. I was a very subdued and a quite child, kept always to myselfand all the pain inside of me was expressed only through my tears. Well that was my idea about a friend! I also had a picture of that someone special., my hero, who would wipe away all my tears and fill my heart with joy!

Fortunately, as I grew up, this definition took a new meaning and my new definition stood as “ A person whom you feel good with and who likes you as much as you do”
Precisely, I have spent my childhood being lonely and I hate that feeling now as I have grown up. I have always wished to be surrounded with friends and have a large group , but somehow I never get there! For me, I am still an introvert at home, with family, but over the years THANK GOD I have become someone, who can strike a casual conversation with a stranger too, quite easily and put the other person at complete ease .Yet only my friends know of me as this jovial & fun loving girl and they know, they can share anything with me and yet I wont make them small or wrong.

I am glad I do have that quality which allows me to be vulnerable and allows others to be vulnerable with me .. So, coming back to the topic of Loneliness, which is nothing but just a state of being, I have never felt so lonely in all my life, even though I have many of my friends who have been so kind and considerate to help me go through my rough state of being.

Well I am sure everyone has gone through this state at some point in their life. So, they would know where I am coming from. Even if there are million people around you, you just feel so empty inside, so hollow, as if a part of you is missing, it kills you slowly from within . And when you really need someone to talk to / express your deeper feelings , you have noone!!You Quietly hope the missing part will be replaced, you wait endlessly , but in vain. You know you have to go through the pain all by yourself, you very well know that but feel so sorry for yourself , and then a part of you either melts you or becomes hardened.

Unfortunately the only person who can full up that space is the person who got you there, or even sometimes someone better than that! Whats more painful is, there may be a number of people in your life who really want to be with you as that someone special, but you just dont feel the same with the new person, and its not your fault :( Even worse is when those people who you expect would understand and support you through back off!! .. Oh !! the scar will never be erased easily! Yet time is the best healer of pain they say!

Irony of life is, you never get what you want and yet sometimes, you love some things which you never wanted to have to begin with. Why does it become so important to be loved, cared and understood? Why can it not be enough if you have friends around you who could do just the same? Why? Why do we long for someone to love us just the way we are and not expect us to change and love us unconditionally. The person who you can shower your love on, is the same person who has the capacity to destroy you from within completely, then why do we long for such a person who will take control of our feelings and emotions , to build a dream and a future ? Why? Whereas friends how ever close they are, don’t have such a power to destroy you!!

Love has immense power to engulf you into sorrow where, the pain is excrutiating and it also has the power to make you the happiest person . Its true!! The world runs on love! It’s a fierce feeling with the highest intensity on the face of this planet, I believe!! Everyone needs love. Love is the only primary force that drives anyone!! Yet we tend to take it too light.. Yet no dictionary or no human can actually answer the question of what really LOVE is!!

But yes… Life is a full circle!! You win some and you lose some. All you could do is just hold on tight and just wait and watch .. One day, Love will blossom if that is what you really want and when you know you have that love with you, never lose it for any reason !

Lost and Found and HOWW!!!!

Lost and Found and HOWW !!!

Yet again a Saturday morning which began with boredom as I have nothing to do. Thus here I was, lying down with an empty mind & I am chatting with a friend from Delhi and telling him my deplorable plight. He came up with a suggestion to work on a new BlogSpot but I didn’t know what to write about. That is when he reminded me of an INTERESTING incident which I had told him about a few days back. Thus, here I am giving words to my thought & trying to paint a picture of what happened a few days back.

As I am writing this blog, I am reminded of something which many of us do believe but more often than not, forget.

So, here you go....


I am a BAG FREAK...simply in LOVE with them. I love different kinds of bags and I keep buying them every now & then out of impulse even if I do not have a specific need. Somehow, this desire of mine is insatiable I am always looking for something new and different. Unfortunately for me, off late, in my pursuit for a good bag , I always end up compromising for an okay kind. I have looked for a good bag every place I could possibly think of but none seemed to have suited my liking so I just decided to stop trying for one for a while.

Then one fateful day I met my friend and we decided to check out the New Mall at Malleswaram called “The Mantri” mall.

I had no plans of buying anything although I am a shopaholic :P. I wanted to window shop and just check around. I happened to tell my friend that I never find good bags no matter where I have looked for it. He said, why do you go looking for a bag when your mind is already negative about finding a good bag & asked me to be positive. I agreed and said I will not keep any such a negative thought and just go check out some bags casually.

So here we were. I entered this shop and saw some bags but didn’t really like any. Went to another shop and my eye caught the sight of one bag which I checked out and happened to like it immediately. I asked my friend’s suggestion and he said its good. But since I have had a history of compromising on bags, I decided I will check around some more and then if I still like this, I will buy it..

I went to a third shop and saw some amazing collection of bags, after checking few I liked one bag much more than the previous one I saw in the previous shop and I decided that’s it! I am going for this and I bought it. I was very happy and satisfied.

The next day I just happened to meet a friend for dinner. After casually chatting for a while I was showing off my new bag to him. I happened to tell him a story of one of my friend and the coincidence in it. He was not ready to believe in such a big coincidence. I was trying to convince him that it really happened.

Anyways I finished dinner and we were preparing to take our bikes and leave. As, I did so, something struck me and I stopped him and said “Hey, I want to give you my business card.”. He took it and then we bid our byes and left in different directions. I always keep my bag in the front where we place our legs while riding. After riding for half an hour I reached home and as I looked down to get hold of my bag, what do I see… My bag is missing!!!! I freaked out… I realised that it must have slipped off while riding. I did not know what to do. It was already 9.30 Pm. I just pulled out my cell to call up to the same friend who I had just met . When I pulled out my cell I saw 5 missed calls from him as well as a message which said “ call me back immediately “ after looking at the message, I freaked out even more and I called him. He received the call and before I could say anything he started yelling at me asking me why I was not receiving the calls and where I was. I cut him short and said I have lost my bag . He yelled even more and said “I have your bag “. I was like what?? How? Why? When?

He told me as to how and where he found the bag. He said he found it on the road which we both have to pass to reach home . Now although we both took different directions , we had one road which was common. He described how he found my bag.

He said: “ I normally do not ride my bike slow, but today I was riding slow and when I came to this junction I saw a small crowd of some 4 people gathered and discussing something as if something had happened . I normally do not stop by to see what happened but today I felt something strange and had a creepy feeling that something had happened to you. I just started looking around to see if I can find your scooty and then what do I find !!This person was holding a bag and I realised it was the same bag you had. It immediately flashed to my mind it was indeed your bag. I told them immediately this is my friend’s bag. They were discussing that they should hand over the bag to the cops and things like that.


My friend was very thoughtful and he remembered that I had given him the card while leaving and told them u can check in the bag’s back pocket which has a card holder and compare this card with that card.. They still didn’t believe, then he dialled my number and said they can compare the number on the cell with the one on the card. He tried calling me but I was riding and did not realise I was getting a call… Then somehow they agreed to give him the bag when he said he will hand it over to me,. Whoa!!!

Isn’t that such a coincidence… I mean my friend who did not believe in the theory of coincidence and the story I had told him at the dinner , actually experienced a real life example... He was not able to believe that it actually happened…

So what I got out of this was “If something is really meant for you, You will get it no matter what. In this case this bag was meant to be with me so I got it back! There is no point trying to hard for anything … “

MULTIPLE JOB SYNDROME !

Hi guys.. i havent written in like a long time now because some people told me that my style of writing is very immature and i bought it.. so i decided i will not write although there were times when i wanted to really address some issue and so many thoughts overflowed in my head. But then i pondered over it and got that " This is my style .. and its my own style .. i dont want to imitate anyone or what so ever.." what is most important is i am writing my thoughts and feelings.. so all this comes stright from my heart....This time i want to address my own issue.. which is " i haven't been able to stick to one "job" .. when i say i haven't been able to stick to one job doesnt mean i have shifted companies in the same feild.. i have jumped from place to place in differnt feilds.. and almost everytime i have jumped in a new field and i end up as a fresher!! I have already explored many different fields but fortunately or unfortunately i haven't still been able to figure out which field i wanna settle in , althought know by now that technical and the regular kinda jobs dont attract me even for their compensation !!! ...

At this point what i really want to know is ..." Is this the case only with me? or there are a lot of people who want are struggling to find the right field which they would love to be in . If there are more people like me why dont we find them often?.. another thing i want to know is "Am i a loser according to conventional people as i haven't been able to figure out what i want or am i courageous enough to explore my heart ".. I know many people who keep doing what they are doing because of responsibilities and other things and then there comes one point where they would feel " i always wanted to do something else but now its too late ' I really dread that feeling.. i can't settle for anything just like that.. i want it all.. guess i am very ambitious .. i want to do everything under the sun!!! hope it does'n cost me a lot !!! even when people asked me in my 10th std what i wanted to do i would say " i wann become a pilot. detetective . doctor, lawyer, model, ..etc ettc.. hheh"e... i may be weird to some people but i have no issues to be WEIRD or different from the mass!!It might be an embarrasing situation for many .. it was for me too coz all my friends are settled with a job and earning pretty good.. but i am out to chase something which is unknown to me too and its like an adventure and you never know what you will come up with.. But i guess the reason i am mentioning all this in my blog is i don't care of what normal people think.. and i have learnt to accept what i am!!

This attitude may appear as rude and rebellious to most people but in the end
I would be the most happy person when i finally chose something that i love coz then i know i have ruled out all the other jobs which could have never worked for me.. I am sure i have the guts to address my thoughts.. and i feel proud of it coz i am sure not many people will agree to my point.. THATS LIFE..!!

Life is like this !!

have learned: that you cannot make someone love you.all you can do is be someone who can be loved. the rest is upto them. that its not what u have in your life, but who you have in your life that counts. that you should always leave loved ones with loving words. it may be the last time u see them. that just because someone doesnt' love you the way u want them to doesn't mean they dont love u with all they have. that no matter how much i care, some people just dont care back.



I have learned: that it takes years to build up trust, and only seconds to destroy it. that you shouldn't compare yourself to the best others can do. that you can do something in an instant that will give you heartache for life. that we are responsible for what we do, no matter how we feel.that our background , and circumstances may have influenced who we are,but we are responsible for who we become. that either you control your attitude or it controls you. that no matter how bad your heart is broken, the world doesnt't stop for your grief.

I ve learned: that heroes are the people who do what has to be done when it needs to be done, regardless of the consequences.That it's hard to determine where to draw the line between being nice and not hurting people's feelings and standing up for what you believe. thats it isnt't always enough to be forgiven by others. sometimes you have to learn to forgive yourself...

i've learned:that sometimes the people you expect to kick you when you're down will be the ones to help you get back up. that sometimes when i'm angry i have the right to be angry, but that doesn't give me the right to be cruel.

i've learned:That maturity has more to do with what yo've learned from them and less to do with how many birthdays's you've celebrated.

: that my best friend and i can do anything or nothing, and have the best time,. thast no matter how good a friend is, they're going to hurt you every once in a while and u must forgive them for that. that we dont have to change friends, if we understand that friends change. . that 2 people can look at the exact same thing and see something totally different.

that your life can be changed in a matter of hours who dont't even know you..